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I haven't posted anything here in a long time. I've been working seven days a week and not having much time to write. Six months ago I started dating a girl and was so happy. I broke up with her this morning. She told me Friday she is asexual and never, ever, ever wants to have sex with me. I couldn't lie and say I could be happy with that. I broke up with her instead of lying and staying with her and hurting us both more down the road.
Yet I can't stop feeling like an asshole. I always wanted to make her happy. We had so many things in common. And I know I hurt her terribly this morning.
Life just isn't fucking fair sometimes.
Yet I can't stop feeling like an asshole. I always wanted to make her happy. We had so many things in common. And I know I hurt her terribly this morning.
Life just isn't fucking fair sometimes.
5 years, so much has happened, Also I'm a girl now
Haven't thought about here in forever, life is...well good, bad, hard, easy. I met a girl through online dating, fell in love, got engaged, was together for 4.5 years. Then I realized I was transgender, tried so hard to deny it, find a reason to not be. And with that, my life changed from where I thought it was going to be. That was the final straw that ended our romantic relationship. We are friends still but it still hurts. Found a camera with old pictures, had to put it down. It sucks, my main job has transphobic owners, my family, my parents can't see me as female, can't get pronouns right, don't like the name I've chosen, it's just so hard. And i'm 33 going on 34 now. I'm a fully grown adult and yet I feel like a teenager still. Where is youth? Where does time go? Is this all I will have, work, eat, sleep, repeat till I am old and grey? Living in the home we once shared, to see the spaces we had together, and to be alone, it's hard. I dunno why I'm writing this, I dunno
Memorial Day Weekend Work Shiittt
I had 5 cashiers call out yesterday. I ended up pulling a ten hour shift. 3 of them were closing cashiers so we were so busy. I am so tired and have another 8 hour shift today.
Yay. :(
Online Dating Sucks!
So I'm finally ready to start looking for a new girl friend. I decide to try online dating to try to widen the amount of people I can interact with.
I see an interesting person, I send a message, I see they visit my page afterwards and then never even respond.
If you aren't interested, tell me so. I'd prefer out right rejection over just being ignored. :(
Ice Storm
Bad news, it made the roads shit, good news, I got cool new pictures!
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Relationships can be difficult. I had my share of troubles; been married for almost fourteen years, and dated for years before that. I once dated a guy who was previously involved with a female gang member, who was pregnant with his child. I found out I was in danger while dating him, and I was forced to tell him I had to break it off for my safety. He understood, but I know it broke his heart, and knowing that hurt me as well.
I know it hurts, each one of us who has dated before has felt the sting in some way or another. One thing to remember is that this is not killing you as it seems to feel. You're feeling the wounds of the heart, but they will heal with time. You're pain stems from your holding onto something in your past. Once you decide you're ready to live in the present and move on from that past, your pain will melt away. You'll never forget her, but at least you'll be free of that pain. I know you'll be fine
I know it hurts, each one of us who has dated before has felt the sting in some way or another. One thing to remember is that this is not killing you as it seems to feel. You're feeling the wounds of the heart, but they will heal with time. You're pain stems from your holding onto something in your past. Once you decide you're ready to live in the present and move on from that past, your pain will melt away. You'll never forget her, but at least you'll be free of that pain. I know you'll be fine